Wednesday Meeting, WEEK THREE

June 3rd.

This is week three of the Wednesday Meeting. The purpose of this meeting is to share my goals, hopes, and commitments for my blog. The purpose of this meeting is to be accountable regarding my intentions.

Each person has 5 minutes to present on two things:

1. “what I am working on this week”

2. meta-feedback on my articles, either positive or negative.

Then we assign one-on-one pairings for weekend discussions.

Last week’s notes here.

Hello gentlemen. My apologies for missing today’s meeting. After my 4:30pm appointment, I was surprisingly informed that I needed to get my blood drawn, which made me disoriented. I accidentally left my phone and laptop at home, so the alarm I set on my phone to remind me of this meeting was never seen. Multiple things went wrong, which will not be a problem going forward.

I still have goals, hopes, and commitments.

GOALS:

1. Positive nihilism.

Positive nihilism is idealistic, virtuous nihilism. I adhere to honor, dignity, courage, bravery, loyalty, and duty, but I stop caring about the results of my actions. Whether I become infertile, lonely, poor, or ugly, I am aloof to these results. I have a duty to pursue my goals, but if things don’t work out, that’s ok. I embrace a nihilistic attitude with regard to results, and an idealistic attitude with regard to efforts.

I was waiting to get my blood drawn, but the nurses were ignoring me. I thought of having to reschedule, and how this would affect my sleep and writing, and how this set-back would compound into a domino effect, ruining everything. I tried my best, but things still didn’t work out. I wasn’t in control of reality, and it made me feel angry and powerless.

Then I remembered positive nihilism. If I try my best, and still fail, that is ok. It’s more than ok: so long as I did my best, I give myself an A for effort, having done my duty, and take pride. If I fail due to external events outside my control, so what? Even in the most catastrophic case (death), I have nothing to be ashamed of, so long as I try my best. I can be proud. I do not need to define myself by results, but by efforts.

2. Less doubt, more idealism.