I am a para-socialist.
Neo-Pastoralism and the Enslavement of Goyim. Also: I'm coming to California (eventually)
This has been a good month for my personal growth, and a bad month for paid subscriptions. I have been alienating some people. It’s understandable. In the first place, I haven’t been putting out three articles per day, which was my typical pace in February. In the second place, I’ve been telling some personal stories which have been turning people off.
I’m going to speak about these things, and my (eventual) trip to California. I try not to paywall things anymore, because if I wanted to optimize my life to make money I would not be on Substack. Or I would be using AI to write cooking recipes.
However, I am tempted to paywall this, because I am feeling a bit sensitive. This sensitivity can be a strength in augmenting my motivation to create beautiful things, but it can also be a detriment in allowing criticisms to drag me down. I need a tiny, momentary break from people telling me that my articles are too long, or too personal, or too self-indulgent. I simply want to write what I feel.
Call me a parasocialist (hehe), but sometimes I simply want to send writing out to the people who love me, and hide it from the people who regard me as a performance-monkey whose purpose in life is to entertain them, and who get annoyed if I don’t deliver their preferred drug. Those people seem to be more common these days, or I’m simply noticing them more in my state of vulnerability.
I understand how harsh and cruel the world is, because of the law of attraction. I put on my armor of steel, and I rush into the battle of ideas, and that energy is reflected back at me. If I suddenly become vulnerable, why should I expect my audience to soften alongside me, and show me any sympathy? That would be a rare gift.
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Ok, enough shilling:
